It’s Been a While

So I know it’s been a while since I posted anything. Truth is I just haven’t had much to say. It has been 3 weeks since my 4th and final of the first round of treatments. My Dr. and I agree that this first round was a success because we can no longer physically feel…

My Security Blanket

I’ve been having a hard time with this post. Someone once said,”If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all!” Hence my silence. There is NOTHING nice to say about chemo. Just thinking about that IV dripping into my veins turns my stomach into ten thousand knots. Now I know that…

To Live

What is it to live? Simply breathing in and out? Opening your eyes to the visions around you? Such a loaded question, I think. I’m sorry to seem maybe a bit morbid today but these thoughts keep pounding in my head. I have to get them out. Sure I am alive. breathing in and out…

POISON 

Yesterday was my first treatment! It went great! I was starting to get concerned really! I mean it was a breeze. For a minute I wondered what was all the hype about!  I sat by a big window looking out to a beautiful garden area. It has just snowed the night before but even the…

Blessed

Today is the first day I’ve felt like this awful disease has altered my life. I mean I know for sure our life is going to change in big ways over the next year but I feel like today is day 1. Up until yesterday I had full intentions of going in to work today….

My New Friend

Today I had another procedure done. Implanted in my upper right chest area is now a mediport. I don’t know why  I thought it was going to be like a cap they could open to have access to the inside of my body. lol   NOPE it is completely under my skin. I don’t even have stiches! It just feels…

When You Know You’re Loved

Boy you all sure know how to make a girl feel loved. I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed today with the outpouring of generosity, love and prayers. Every person I encounter is asking how they can help and what can they do to make this easier on me. They are telling me they will be praying. I…

Expect the Unexpected

Make a plan and God laughs! I was doing so good. I had it all figured out and had prepared my self for surgery this week. Today My parents and I went to my surgeons office to plan for my double mastectomy. I was looking forward to getting it done this week so we could…

Course of Action post 3

Who knew I would have so many options in the course of my treatment. Two things we know for sure is, this has to come out, and chemo treatment is a must. After talking with my doctor for over an hour and a half, I have come to the decision to have both breasts removed….

Digging Deeper post 2

In the days following my diagnosis I set out for more information on what was actually going on in my body. I had chest x-ray and blood work done. I also decided to have genetic testing done. The purpose of this would be to determine if the breast cancer gene was something that was passed…

Getting the News post 1

January 10th, the day my entire life changed and I didn’t even get a say in it. So lets go back to the beginning.