Who knew I would have so many options in the course of my treatment. Two things we know for sure is, this has to come out, and chemo treatment is a must. After talking with my doctor for over an hour and a half, I have come to the decision to have both breasts removed. This was highly recommended by my surgeon and oncologist, but was left as an option to me. I could choose to only have the lump or 1 breast removed and follow with radiation treatment. This course of action left me with a great risk of cancer returning. I knew right away I would not take that risk. I know that this will not only be hard on me but awful for my husband and small children. I felt that I owe it to them to do everything I can to make sure my family does not have to go through this again. Dr. Felix also explained to me that should I choose to not accept chemotherapy I would have an 80% or more chance of this returning. Again, I could not take that risk.
Monday I will meet with my surgeon to go over my pending bilateral mastectomy. During this surgery I will also have a port put in place. This will enable me to receive the chemotherapy medication. Pending a successful surgery and 4 weeks of healing I will then begin treatment.
I feel like I have been waiting forever to get started with this. Waiting has been the worst part of this whole process. Every day that I wait my mind seems to play tricks on me. I keep thinking that I can feel this stupid thing growing. I have began to get headaches and with every little once of tenderness I have I keep thinking “Oh my this is spreading.” I am so thankful, since I have seen the results of my PET scan, which showed me that the cancer has not yet spread, these feeling have been so much better.
I never imagine I would ever say this but I can not wait to get these stupid boobs cut off!